A place to put some of my thoughts!

I'm not much one for sharing, so updates are rare!

22.11.'25

Feeling: Neutral

Listening to: Down In It - Nine Inch Nails

Thinking about: Soup

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I've had "Kiss Me Son Of God" stuck in my head for a while now and it's making me want to animate one of my characters.

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12.11.'25

Feeling: Good!

Listening to: So-Lo - Danny Elfman

Thinking about: My Current Postal 2 Pacifist Playthrough

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Art has been a lot easier to make since getting medicated. I think part of that comes with the relief of having an explanation for all the strange happenings in my life for the past 20 years, but an even larger part of it is having meds that actually WORK.

It's a huge relief. It hasn't made my art 'level up' yet per se, moreso that it's easier to take my time and actually sink my teeth into things and grasp concepts better now that my head is quieter.

It's kind of a relief to realize how little of life is your business. How little of it actually matters when it's outside of your scope of control, there's so much less to worry about.

One of the biggest weights off of my shoulders was expecting myself to be 'normal'. It's a stupid thing to expect of anybody, but especially out of a psychotic person. I shouldn't try to be palatable to the masses, I should just try to make myself happy.

This is a lot to let go of for someone who's spent their entire life trying to make everyone happy. But it feels good. I should just be myself. Do no harm, take no shit.

Besides, now that I'm alone in my head, I'm gonna need to find my freaks. And we'll never be able to find each other if I don't act like myself.

Overall, things are looking up!